[Still, she sounds small and almost lost. Like she isn't even sure where she is now. Obviously, she recognizes his trailer. The state it's in is distressing, though not as much as the condition he's in. Maybe she should lie to him, since she thinks he might feel better if he thinks she was in some cloudy place as an angel.]
Everything was dark. I really don't think heaven is real.
[Which is a big waste of time all those years her parents drug her to church. But what is she going to do about that now? Nothing really matters anymore, apart from the fact that the connection she had felt with him before her death is the only thing she can really think fondly on in the moment. It's the only part of her short life that she can say felt so vividly and genuinely real that she wants to scream and rage because they never go to see where their connection could lead.
It's not fair.
Why was she targeted by that monster?
Why did no one close to her notice she was struggling and try to help?
Why didn't the school counselor do anything when she tried speaking up?
Why didn't she go to Eddie sooner to score drugs?
And why didn't he find the Special K sooner?
Chrissy's overcome with the unfairness of all of it, and she can only cling hold of him because he's the only thing currently keeping her from going back to the dark, empty place.]
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[Still, she sounds small and almost lost. Like she isn't even sure where she is now. Obviously, she recognizes his trailer. The state it's in is distressing, though not as much as the condition he's in. Maybe she should lie to him, since she thinks he might feel better if he thinks she was in some cloudy place as an angel.]
Everything was dark. I really don't think heaven is real.
[Which is a big waste of time all those years her parents drug her to church. But what is she going to do about that now? Nothing really matters anymore, apart from the fact that the connection she had felt with him before her death is the only thing she can really think fondly on in the moment. It's the only part of her short life that she can say felt so vividly and genuinely real that she wants to scream and rage because they never go to see where their connection could lead.
It's not fair.
Why was she targeted by that monster?
Why did no one close to her notice she was struggling and try to help?
Why didn't the school counselor do anything when she tried speaking up?
Why didn't she go to Eddie sooner to score drugs?
And why didn't he find the Special K sooner?
Chrissy's overcome with the unfairness of all of it, and she can only cling hold of him because he's the only thing currently keeping her from going back to the dark, empty place.]